Weed and depersonalization.

I love weed and i was a heavy smoker I’d say but prior to being a heavy smoker I had panic attacks anyway. I started having more panic attacks recently and smoked my way through them, now iv stopped smoking it because i got depersonalisation I’m recovering from that and let me tell you recovering from it is simple. Don’t blame weed for it or any other factors .Depersonalisation comes from one thing Anxiety. And if you could smoke weed and not be anxious before then you can do it again. Right now I’m not touching weed quite simply because no matter how strong my mind is I am not fully recovered to be strong enough to control all my thoughts. So whilst I may think that if I smoke weed now I’ll be depersonalised again, i know really its not the weed but my anxious association I have with weed that will make me think that. I don't know if that makes sense but I hope it helps also, anyone who thinks they are feeling depersonalised and out of sorts go to

http://www.anxietynomore.co.uk/depersonalisation_and_derealisation.html

it will help you loads it explains depersonalisation comes from being to concerned about your own problems and is a defence mechanism made by your brain in order to rest your tired mind.

My boyfriends a big smoker and me and him always preach the goodness of it. He understands why I don’t smoke it at the moment and helps me through what I’m dealing with. But he knows more than most that the majority of things people go through is a head fuck created by the constant cycle of worry that you allow yourself to have. As I write all this I feel better but does that mean then that typing is a cure for anxiety and depersonalisation ? No it means my head is becoming clear and all the symptoms I think are unfixable become irrelevant as I work out why I feel the way I do. I suggest anyone feeling completely stuck does things that make them feel familiar and what ever you do DO NOT STOP YOUR LIFE! That is the worst thing you can do. Go out switch off and get together with your mates tell them how you feel and why you feel it. Have a laugh about it. I do. I tell my mates “Its like being constantly pissed”

My anxieties came because I got mild pains in my chest and my head allowed me to believe I was dying I would spend all day thinking about dying and then go smoke weed which is what I thought was giving me the chest pains so these mild chest pains would become extreme when I smoked but the reality is they were no different nothing was. then the depersonalisation arrived. Remember. Your fine! I take St johns Wort because what i thought i had was depression they work for me but again it may all just be because I’m sorting my head out. For a time I couldn't’t look in the mirror because I didn’t know who I was anymore I couldn't get out of the dream. I'm all for weed, and my gap from it is not down to the fact its harmful but down to the fact that my mind is weak at the moment and until my strength is back anything that can trigger my own anxieties.

I went to a job interview feeling depersonalised and managed to get a job and keep it didn’t even register that i was employed because nothing was real. But I know its all an emotional thing because you can feel fine during the day and feel back to normal and that why i never blame weed when you place blame on something you allow mind to create a source for the anxiety. And then you are waiting for it, but the reality is, weed does what weed has always done. How can all of a sudden the affects of weed change? It hasn’t changed you have. Get a stronger mind and live life again. No matter how out of sorts you feel, YOU’RE YOU. And you've always been you and you always will be remember that.